I just received word that I was not accepted into the Apprenticeship I was so excited about. The company already told me that anyone who is called in for the first class after the interview was accepted into the program but it turns out “the decision to let me go was a hard one.”

This is getting ridiculous. I’m starting to consider just packing up and moving to Arizona like my brother did. This is the closest I’ve ever been to getting hired to anything with steady pay in years and I still feel shot down.

I’m not going to let it get to me I’m just gonna creep but to lead someone on like that just hurts. My entire family was so proud of me. They thought coming back home and working on this project that would barely keep me alive with how unstable pay dates are would finally be worth it. 

To be honest I don’t feel like a programmer anyway. I’m graphics based. Getting certified in Captivate, Flash, Edge and After Effects are my next steps right now since its the only thing that seems to be getting me any kind of income here.