Not sure if I’ll be able to say it later so I’m saying it on Christmas eve. 

Scroogeposting below. Ignore it if you don’t want to read whining.

This is legitimately the most depressing time of the year for me. As I mentioned last year, my family does not celebrate the holidays. We’re not jewish, we’re christian and every time I mention this I get strange looks. Christians celebrate Christmas, why don’t you?

Well it’s not me persay. Me and My brother do exchange gifts when we have the money (which we don’t this year) and we’re not religious at all. This church my closer family goes to has brainwashed it’s members into believing that Christmas is exploiting the birth of Jesus and the story of gifts. The pastors convinced everyone that it’s literally a sin to celebrate Christmas as its dishonoring Jesus’ name. Me and my brother both know this is just a ploy to help out poorer families so they don’t feel bad about not being able to buy presents and its a good cause but it’s a load of bullshit.

Christmas doesn’t represent Jesus at all. No matter how much people push this the fact remains that Jesus was not born at the end of the year and the empire was threatened by him even existing. We see Christmas as a time to get together before the end of the year to see the family one last time before the year is  up and really the gifts don’t matter that much. I also see Christmas as a symbol of childhood innocence and wonder. Since no one around me celebrates it, it just makes me remember the old days and realize that I’m still in my  childhood home and how unaccomplished that makes me feel.

If it wasn’t just Christmas it’d soften the blow. But it’s not. We don’t celebrate anything except the countdown for the new year in which we look back at how much we didn’t do last year.

I just hate the holidays now and I said it last time but I just need to get away from here and open up to make some like minded friends. This place is just toxic to me.

But just like Valentines, I won’t allow the holiday to hinder anyone elses’ enjoyment just because I can’t take part. So happy holidays everyone.